Hey, remember how we planned to go to cty santa cruz? Remember how we said we’d take a trip to Hawaii and stay with my grandparents in la for a few days too? I miss that. I miss you. i miss the days when we used to be so close. haha when we were young and nothing else really mattered. we still had problems but they seem so petty now as i look back.
remember when we just started fencing? we used to be so into it. now youve stopped and ive quit going to the club. lol that really was such a long time ago. four years. i cant believe it haha it makes me feel so old</3 remember when we got our gear out and fenced outside by your pool? thats definitely my fondest memory. along with a few of us at the chess class or chilling in your pool with your brother and sister. lol my first one was in that excel class where you proved early on that you were and continue to be way smarter than me lol show off ^^ we competed a lot i guess. i had the upper hand in fencing and you in cram school classes lol you always did way better than me. but you always stuck with me rather than ditching me for the smart kids. and i appreciated that. though i cant understand why haha ^^ we had a lot of good memories together. we had a lot of good times. and even though we never said it i really did consider you my first real best friend. ill never understand why you chose me but ill always be so grateful that you did.
i used to resist letting go of you and all these memories. but now i think im ready to do it. im letting go for good this time. of the past and of all our mistakes and triumphs and some of the most amazing parts of my childhood. im accepting that it wont ever be like that again. and we probably wont ever get to relive any of those memories again. but you know what? it hurts a bit but i think im okay with that.
tbh seeing you again sealed it for me. im so glad youre doing well. im really happy that everything is looking up for you. im glad that you pulled through all the hardships you went through that i couldnt help you with. im just really really glad youre doing well.
i guess i was just worried about you. i was worried maybe you still needed me. but God’s shown me that youre way more than okay (: youve got other people to lean on and (i really hope) you’re still leaning on God too.
so if this is goodbye forever then i just want to say thank you. thank you so much for being such a good friend to me for so long. thank you for being my very first best friend. thank you for helping me grow up and most of all thank you for bring me back into God’s hands. thank you for changing me and the path that im walking on. thank you so much for everything and for being a part of my life.
i honestly owe you more than you’ll ever ever know.
thank you so much.
so i guess this is goodbye (: take care of yourself now. i honestly and truly wish you all the best in life. but since its you im sure you’ll be fine ^^ at the very least i know things will work out for you ^^ above all wherever you go i hope youre laughing ^^
and i hope we can catch up someday in the future (: so we can look back and just laugh like we used to ^^
