February 2012
i think the worst feeling in the world is knowing that someone you used to talk to everyday doesnt care about you anymore
"Why do you cut yourself?"..
ssuicidalthoughtss:
-‘Think of yourself trapped inside a room with the person you hate the most. They start insulting you and being agressive. What would you do? Punch them in the face? Try to hurt them?’
-‘Yes.’
-‘I’m just the same. I can’t stand being with me, so I hurt myself.’
Accomplishment of the day: learned to ride a...
Lol I love cty kids
“whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord” Colossians 3:23
do everything to the best of your ability. cause you’re not doing it for the men on earth you’re doing it for the Lord in heaven. give it your all everyday at everything you do.
“Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free,...
"everyday is a five hour energy day!"
ive had that stuff before. lol legit makes me so freakin hyper. lol so much better than coffee. but i think i might have finished it too fast thats why tho haha
but no. lol thats so bad for you. lol studies have shown that no one drinks five hour energy a everyday. commercial you lie.
LOL i have no idea why im posting this<3 random rants coming back<3
my mom watches the big bang theory
apocalypse here we come
LOL
all day: tired
time to go to bed: not tired
Failed the fitness test for tying my shoe (y)
Funniest thing I’ve seen in so long LOL
Things I say in school too much.
Me: I'm hungry.
Me: I am tired
Me: Can I burn this school down or
Me: what is that faggot doing
Me: We had homework?
Me: Oh he is cute, wait , no, never mind.
Me: I hate this class
Me: it's too cold
Me: *sleeping in class*
Me: Yay it's time to go home!
Me at home: I am bored.
Mom: What's wrong?
My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
My mind: I haven't been eating that much and I'm hungry all the time.
My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.
My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.
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Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.
mom: why are you laughing alone in your room
Hey, remember how we planned to go to cty santa cruz? Remember how we said we’d take a trip to Hawaii and stay with my grandparents in la for a few days too? I miss that. I miss you. i miss the days when we used to be so close. haha when we were young and nothing else really mattered. we still had problems but they seem so petty now as i look back.
remember when we just started fencing?...
mhmph
hey. thanks for calling lol. tbh i feel like i havent laughed like that in a really long time. lol sheesh stop being so good at making me happy :P
i feel like i havent laughed like that in a long time. and i shouldnt feel like this. i dont know. things just seem more complicated now. im too tense. im worried about college even though i shouldnt care.
i got waitlisted at a school i should have...
I drifted away from a lot of people.
kaceycloie:
I remember being close to someone I called “friend” or even “best friend”.
“People always telling me that I am something special well that’s too much...”
– Ordinary By Tim Be Told
FINALLY. AN INTERVIEW THAT WENT PERFECTLY. FINALLY SOMEONE WHO CAN ACTUALLY HELP ME.
Thank you coach corbit!! :)
Even if I get rejected it was really uplifting to see someone so willing to help me and excited to see a fencer like me. And it was really nice to see someone so excited and passionate about what they do :) seriously even if I get rejected you’ve inspired me to continue to do...
It’s ironic that I know all these stories about my moms father and uncles and aunts and their struggles and stuff.
But the one man I lived with for so long. My grandpa. My dad’s dad. I know so little about. And he’s the one I really wish I knew more about. I was too young to remember his stories. I know so little. And that’s what I regret the most. Not being to remember...
Where’s the team that beat the mavs? Can we have them back please? Come on Knicks >
“If we listened to our intellect we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a...”
– Ray Bradbury (via bashfoolsqueeky)